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Professor of Smurfology ...

Obtainer of rare smurftiquities ...


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Psych-quote-You heard about Pluto?
soulswallo

I wish ...

Okay. So, semi-serious post here.

First off, my grandma's feeling fine. Yay! She stayed at our house last night just to be on the safe side since she lives alone and she was feeling peachy-keen this morning. She went shopping and everything. Awesome.

Secondly, back when I was working for the bank I was put on anti-anxiety medication for all the stress I was under. When I quit the bank, I weaned myself off of it. At first, this seemed like a good idea. I wasn't stressed, why did I need the meds? About two weeks ago I realized that I was completely unproductive. I have all these ideas, but none of them are being worked on. None of them. I was falling back into the habit of doing nothing. Not taking the kids out to do things. Not even wanted to play with them because I was ... tired, maybe. It's more than that, though. I had no drive. I wasn't physically tired, just mentally not there. Not focused. Blah, blah, blah.

So, I'm watching one of those commercials for anti-anxiety meds that pop up all the time on whatever channel I always watch and I realized that all the symptoms they were describing were me. So, I started my meds back up and I can already feel a difference. I just feel more focused and like I want to do things.

I'm not taking them every day so I'm not having those annoying side effects (although I still get sleepy midday, but that's just me, I think) that used to keep me up at night. Like the lump in my throat that made me feel like hurling. That one wasn't fun. Anyway. I feel like I've found a bit of a balance here and it's a good thing.

Meanwhile, I'm in the middle of alternately reading a book that oddmonster wanted me to read (In the Company of Ogres, Odd, not the Christie's) and watching eps of the original Star Trek series. Amusing on both counts.

That pretty much ends my thoughts. All of them are out there for you. Scary.
Later.